My cousin is a handful. I feel like I haven’t had any rest this weekend, and I feel exhausted! Next weekend I am not doing a damn thing!
Today we tried to go to the gym with him, but I had to end up stopping what I was doing on the treadmill to go after him because he wouldn’t stay where we were. It was driving me nuts. Then I got annoyed with my fiance because he has the mouth of a sailor sometimes and he wasn’t watching his mouth around my cousin. My cousin is only 13, and it was upsetting me. I told him to stop, and he still didn’t so I was like “jeesh, I am never going to have kids with you if this is how you’re gonna act” or something along those lines and he got his feelings really hurt and went upstairs. I felt bad, but I didn’t know how else to get through to him at that point, and in the moment I was being serious. I do not want my kids raised around a potty mouth and if he can’t watch his mouth for two days, then I don’t even know how all the time would be possible. I just can’t even believe how inappropriate my cousin is at 13, though…making sex jokes and just saying very bad things. I couldn’t stand that. I hope he doesn’t go home and tell his mom that we were fighting, though.
So today was our big one week weigh-in!! I lost 8 pounds and he lost 9! I am so proud of us. I thought it would be like 5-7 pounds. We also had Subway twice this week and pizza Friday night, so that surprised me even more. Hey, I’ll take it!!
Well, today we went to the gym and started eating healthier. After not working out for over a year, I sure felt the burn!!! I didn’t realize that it would hit me so hard. When I got on the elliptical, I went 5 minutes and felt like dying. We also did weights and a mile on the treadmill. We started by playing a little basketball. It was nice having my fiance right there next to me.
I use the Bodybugg, and met all of my goals so that made me happy! It has my calorie intake high, so that is kind of good because it gives me room to play, but on most days I know I won’t get close to it so that is even better.
Overall, it was a really good day. I am proud of Mike, and also proud of myself for doing it. Tonight, we cleaned out all of the food we can’t have and my mom is going to come get it tomorrow.
Tags: Bodybugg, Gym, Health
Thank goodness it is Friday. Like I said in my last post…my job has really been stressing me out lately. I did kind of get some good news today, though. I found out they are hiring someone to help me. They have one lady already kind of helping me, but she really isn’t doing anything. The new position is for a 6 month temporary full-time position, but hey..I’ll take it! My position also started as temp, but they kept me.
I know things will get better, but I get so stressed sometimes that I just immediately panic and want to quit whatever it is. Maybe that is something I need to work on. I know all of this stress can’t be healthy.
Tonight my fiance and I watched a movie on Netflix called Fire With Fire. Usually when we want to watch something on Netflix we never end up agreeing so we usually just shut it off. He always wants to watch weird action movies haha. This time, I looked for an action movie and saw this one had Bruce Willis, Josh Duhamel, and Rosario Dawson and he agreed. It was SO GOOD! It was so hard to watch at times because disturbing things happened, but I definitely loved it. I was on the edge of my seat a few times!
Tomorrow, if we have enough money..we are going to a restaurant because a bunch of people I used to work with are having a little reunion. We have all always been close; they are like my second family. Some of them I haven’t seen since they gave me a going away party 2 or 3 years ago. I am also excited for them to meet my fiance, so I am really hoping we can afford to go!
With that said, I always get nervous in those type of situations. I get social anxiety and feel like everyone will judge or not like me. Mostly because of the way I look, being overweight, but also the things I say. I often worry if I will have anything to say, or if I will say the right or wrong thing. It freaks me out, so much that I used to cancel things because of the fear. I think a lot of it comes from my dad walking out of my life. My doctor seems to think that once all of my levels are where they should to be, that the anxiety will be gone. She thinks it is caused by my thyroid and everything else being out of whack.
Anyway, it is time for me to watch a chick flick while the fiance is snoring next to me on the couch..haha!
Well, the past few days my fiance and I have been arguing. Last night was the worst and I ended up not getting any sleep at all. I had an appointment with my doctor at 8:15 AM and my doctor is a little over an hour away. I called out of work because there was just no way.
The appointment was just to get refills on prescriptions and see if my levels have improved with the medication she prescribed. In 2012, I found out that I am anemic, have extremely low B12 and have hypothyroidism. I also got put on blood pressure medicine, but she thinks she will take me off of that once everything else gets straightened out. So, fast forward to today’s check-up. My blood pressure was the best it has been since they have ever taken it! I was very surprised…and happy about that. She said my iron levels haven’t reached where she wants, but those go up the slowest so she expects them to keep improving. My B12 was excellent, but she said next time to make sure I get my labs done when I am due for my B12 shot to make sure the reading is completely accurate; I didn’t know that last time. Then lastly, my thyroid….I was delusional because of my lack of sleep, but either it had gotten worse or just not improved at all so she had to up my dosage on that.
I tell you what, the past few days I have been out of my medicine because I couldn’t get an appointment with the holidays. I have really noticed a difference being off of my thyroid medicine. I got very depressed and extremely anxious. I think that is a lot of the problem between my fiance and I. When I first went to the doctor, I went because I was having extreme social anxiety. She said that she is positive it is because of my thyroid issues, and she believes that once that is taken care of my anxiety will be gone. Being on that medicine, I have seen an improvement, but being off of it for those few days it was like I was bipolar or something without it. I was literally freaking out inside; feeling like a crazy person.
I am kind of glad to see 2012 gone, to be honest. Good and bad things happened for me in 2012. The worst was losing my oldest cat Puppy. It was absolutely devastating for me. The best was probably moving in with my fiance and then getting engaged on November 29th.
Looking forward to a much better 2013!!